An Unwanted Loss: Short Story

 

We traveled long and far away from the kingdom, into this huge grey-tinted building. You can tell by giving it a glimpse that it has been around for way too long, the trees looked dead, and the building had its bricks collapsed into the rest of the bricks. It’s the opposite of looking at the castle. During my training, I met this individual, he always had something to say and stood up for most of the princesses that were admitted. At first, I just thought he was a player, and now that I think about it it’s something rude to say off the top of my head. Let’s just say that he didn’t give me the perfect first impression he would want to give a girl. But he wasn’t like the others, he mentioned multiple times how dumb it was to keep having princesses be queens when they didn’t want to be anywhere near the throne. And yes, I thought the same thing, but instead of agreeing with him out loud, I took my mother’s stance on the topic. I can tell by the look on his face that this opinion wasn’t welcomed by him, and the most annoying part of this is I don’t know why I even said it. 

As time went by, I spent more time with him. We got into big adventures together, and I got to know him so much better. I never judged him, and I believe I was right about it. He was that company that someone needs, and I was glad that I found him first. He could change the bad moments into good ones. When I came back from the princess training, this was all because mother wanted me to be the best queen there was, and to fix the issues that past queens created. There was so much division among the citizens of Convexity, people created cults and hate riots toward different races because they thought others didn’t belong. That wasn’t something I wanted to continue spreading, at least not in this kingdom. Oliver knew all of this. And that’s why he continued to hang around me even after the training. 

Sometimes we are asked to start all over, which can be for the best of a new world. But that isn’t something I wanted, and please, don’t get me wrong. All I did was do the best for my kingdom but why was it at the cost of my happiness? Throughout the years there was an unstable energy that kept consuming the balance that the kingdom was supposed to have, and my mother fought long and hard to accomplish and create a positive chain. Alas, it wasn’t enough. As years went by, I grew up and was waiting to be the new queen of Convexity. It sounds funny, but I didn’t want to be the next queen. Queen has to uphold some strong training from a young age and trust me it isn’t something fun. I just wanted to be that girl that had friends and get to enjoy the time that I have in this world. Monarchy sucks, and it sucks even more that you must be framed as this perfect daughter. What does perfect mean? It means you can’t make any mistakes in your life, and if you do make mistakes then you have to make sure you cover them up as quickly and quietly as possible. Mom was good at that and for good reasons, she wasn’t this perfect creation that my grandmother made. Citizens don’t understand this as they should, and that’s something I would like to change as soon as I become the next queen. And that’s a big IF, huh? Within my years of training, I was sent off to another planet. I had to because mother said I was being out of hand and creating more problems than there is to fix, and trust me I know I tried so hard to cover who I really was, but to what end?

Days went by and I still missed you. It was not etiquette according to my mother, but I think it was right to feel the way I did. We couldn’t live our last moments to the fullest, and we didn’t live long enough together either. I couldn’t call you my boyfriend, and we couldn’t do those other things that young couples do. But then again, I didn’t know it was something I wanted until I was left with no other choice. Maybe magic made us talk out of our minds, but on the inside, we knew what we really wanted, and I loved you. God, I didn’t say those words directly to you because there was something inside of me that stopped me. Maybe if I said something it would have been harder than it already was. David was with me on these lonely days, and I hope that you remember him as well, he was one of our best friends. He tried giving me company these days, tried to help me get on my feet again and walk in those footsteps on becoming a queen, yet it felt empty. I know it must be hard on David as well because he confessed his love for me, and he knew that the love wasn’t corresponding. How bad does one feel looking at the person you love who feels lonely because they lost their person? It’s such a hard question, and I tried to help him as well, but I can’t keep my head straight anymore. 

I wonder how life on Zolic has been towards you, and I hope you remember the good things about us. I knew that being a queen had its disadvantages, but losing the only reason I wanted to be a queen is just stupid. It’s not fair. Does mother now say that it was all for the best of the kingdom? Yes. But was it really? Did I have to risk my own happiness for the happiness of others? And to continue owning an empire that was something I had only inherited? All of this is not worth it, and I hope there was a way to change the outcome because of the failures of the past queens.  

Today I am crowned queen, and I wished you were by my side to help me manage the burden of the kingdom. And I truly hoped you were king. We enjoyed each other's company and knew what we were getting ourselves into. There was no way around the situation, and all I prayed for was the peace of mind that you created for everyone. Hopefully, we could see each other, and open the portals that we need for our union. Lets hope and pray to one day be together once more. May the gods be good to us.